Somebody make me understand, things are just clouded like sand.
I feel like such an idiot at times, everything I do is wrong or dives.
I feel out of place, a total mistake. I don't know what to do, am I awake?
I feel like I'm in some type of dream, there's no way out of this dream it seems.
I'm not feeling like myself.
This few days of doing nothing,is really getting to me,Jobs are so freakin' difficult to get now,and whoever said,boy-friend's can cure borderm should be shot! i swear!Sometimes i feel like everyone arnd me has purpose in life,or shld i say they're all smart enought to be in government sch's? I mean your friends can go on saying,that it's okay and that they're sure there will be some door open for us! but seriously its BULL SHIT! i feel like a total loser right now,despite the brave front's i put up.I jus can't wait to do something that will make my parents sooo proud and the hipocrits arnd me,to SHUT THE FUCK UP maybe? screw you. seriously.
I know that I'm a failure but It does'nt mean I have not succeeded yet,and yes i noe i have accomplished nothing but It does'nt mean I have learned nothing.Most times I've been a fool but It does'nt mean that i did'nt have enough faith to experiment,obviously i feel disgraced but i know that i dared to try.
I am inferior, and It does'nt mean I am not perfect.
I damn well know that i've wasted my life but It does mean that I have an excuse to start over.
and if ever i should give up; It does mean that I should try harder.
and if others say I will never make it, It does mean that I need more practice.
and to all those who have abandoned me,It does mean that you must have a better idea.
